It’s been 4 years since I had my abortion. I was on vacation and I had a one-night stand. I was really scared at what my family would think, plus would I really be a good mom? Once I returned from my vacation I immediately had the procedure done. I felt relieved at first but as the months went by I thought about what I did. I was so caught up at what others would say and not about what was best for the innocent being inside me.
I still think about how my child would of looked like or what would have they studied? I'm so scared to be a mom now, two years after I had my abortion I became pregnant again and I swore not to even have an abortion cross my mind. I ended up losing my child after 8 weeks, sometimes I wonder if I was being punished for what I had done 2 years earlier, but I know that god and my child have forgiven me, I just have to forgive myself. One day I will be blessed with having a child, but until then I will vow to help those to give them other options […] Cause it REALLY REALLY does change you.
God Bless,
SR