Hi my name is J. I am 18 years old and I am supposed to be 8 months pregnant...
When did you find out you were pregnant?
I found out in September of 2009
Whom did you tell?
My roommate, I was in university.
It's father who was my boyfriend at the time.
My mother.
What was their reaction?
My roommate was so excited for me and [the] father... My mother was furious and told me to go and get the abortion that day...
What options did you consider?
I'm adopted so even mentioning the word abortion makes me sick to my stomach this was my emotional and physical reaction to the word/thought my entire life... You just look at it very differently when you are adopted I guess, at lest that is how it is for me...
What led up to your decision to abort?
My mother bullied threatened and manipulated me into having the abortion
When and where did the abortion take place?
[…] 10am Nov. 26, 2009
Who accompanied you to the clinic or doctor’s office?
The baby’s father and my mom to make sure I went through with it.
What happened there?
I was so sick I had to lay on the floor in the waiting room... I was called in my mom escorted me to the door. I laid on the table and looked up at the ceiling and began to cry... I was under anesthetic but I felt every moment of it... it was like I was trapped in my own body unable to move or scream... or protect my unborn child...
What happened right after the abortion?
I went home with my boyfriend and cried. I slept the rest of the day after that...
Did you talk to anyone about it?
A councilor, my mom, some friends.
What happened in the days and weeks that followed?
I couldn't eat, I didn't sleep or I slept lots, I didn’t see anyone. I locked myself in my room and shut out life and almost everyone in it.
What happened in the months that followed?
I went through a sever depression cycle like one doctor had predicted.
What did you feel immediately afterward?
Regret, like I wanted to die or bitch out my mom.
What do you feel now?
Awful, sad, regret, depressed, tired, sick.
How has the abortion impacted your life?
It’s made my life very hard. It’s hard to get up, go to bed, talk to people, laugh, spend time with my mom... I can’t live like I was before.... happiness eludes me.